ThetaHealing Blog

Heal Myself, Heal the World?

I just read the most interesting blog post by Craig Hamilton entitled Moral Obligation to Transform. Essentially the article speaks about each of us viewing world transformation from the point of view that it is our own personal obligation to make changes in the world.

In his piece Craig first summarizes the personal growth journey many of us have followed, seeking results and seeing patterns we'd like to eliminate re-emerge over and over again. He asks the question of what intensity you would put into your spiritual practice if the transformation of the world rested on your shoulders. How would you then approach your spiritual practice?

I've been on that Personal growth journey he speaks of -- for over 30 years. I know just how difficult it is to change some beliefs, especially those that are genetic -- held deep within the body and the subconscious and coming back over and over gain. I've tried affirmations -- thousands and thousands of them. And I got some change, for a while. Till I stopped doing the affirmations. Then whatever belief I was trying to override would poke it's power in my face again and there I'd be going through the same thing all over again. With the theta classes I've seen many of those beliefs stay changed. It's like they've disappeared and were never there. In ThetaHealing class, I learned how to not only change my own beliefs but to change them genetically back through the eons of time and with permission to make those changes in others.

Quantum Physics and Chaos theory show us we are all interconnected, and that a change in one does seem to affect the whole. (I'm being simplistic here, rather than academic, so please excuse the assumptions.) Numerous experiments with cells have shown that cells from the same body communicate over thousands of miles. So too, does DNA -- and not just over distance, but throughout time. Your DNA, your genes are still being affected by your Grandmother, and her mother and father, etc. Some of the further out scientists believe that present, past and future exist simultaneously and changes we make to the present affect all three.

As I've written in other blog posts, I know that when I change my beliefs about my client, and what he/she will do, then my client changes. With Theta I can change the influences of my ancestors, through changing my DNA and genes. In the opening of Vianna's web site, there are different inspirational messages that fade in and out on the masthead. The one that resonates with me is "Expanding love, joy and healing worldwide." The more I heal my own beliefs about the world, about the necessity to suffer, to have it be a long, difficult path to healing, the more I contribute to healing the world.

ThetaHealing teaches us to connect to the Source energy, the engergy of All that is using theta brain waves and to use that energy to make huge and instant changes in ourselves and with their permission in others. I've seen these changes take place before my very eyes, even when some part of me was disbelieving that it would occur. In my clients I've seen pain banished -- there one minute, gone the next. And it wasn't me. It was that Source energy -- whatever name you might want to give it. And, really, any name is all right, just as long as you are connected to that energy.

As I saw it, Craig's point is that if we focus on the greater good of changing the world, then we forget ourselves, and our energy and courage for change increase dramatically. I see it somewhat differently, in that the more I change my beliefs about what can be, and the nature of myself in the world, the more the world changes. Craig is an eloquent and intellectual writer (I encourage you to read his whole piece.), while I see my own writing as approaching things in a much simpler way. So, I see it as what I change, changes everything around me. And every change I effect on myself is a change in this great whole.

I just now remembered another line from Craig's piece -- about each of us being a different eye in that whole. So, when I change the way this eye sees, the whole changes its vision.

Autumn Equinox -- A realization about the Power of Theta

Last night I attended the Autumn Equinox celebration of the Temple of the Goddess in Pasadena. The Fall Equinox is the day of the year when the there is equal light and dark. It is a time of year when we think of moving from summer to fall, of our harvest, and of the coming winter. In this day of equal balance, the Equinox can be a time when we focus on the balance in the duality of our lives -- of young and old, birth and death, light and dark, intellect and intuition, male and female, animal and human, matter and spirit. That is just what the Celebration last night was designed to do. All events at the Temple are the Goddess are interactive. Last night we each brought fruit to the alter and received seeds (representing our dreams) to keep through the dark of the winter for germination in the Spring.

The celebration was filled with exuberant and beautiful dance, music that lifted and expanded the heart, and a story of a young man’s journey into the “middle place” to understand the dualities of life, dancing for all of us, a walk on the balance beam and lots of wonderful snacks afterwards. All of it designed to reach a thoughtful place within and give to the recipient exactly what was for them to contemplate.

For me, the part of the program that went deep, was a call and response poem, “I am the Gardner of my Life” written by Xia for the Temple of the Goddess rituals. I’m writing about it here, because I was so deeply touched with the understanding of how ThetaHealing have given me the tools to be the Gardner in my life. For one of the first times, I could truly and from a place of feeling the enormous power it gives me say, “I am the Gardener in my life.”

I am the Gardener of my life.
I plant the seeds of my desires.
I nurture the source of my dreams.
I am the Gardener of my life.

I am the Gardener of my life.
I plant the seeds of my desires
I cultivate the growth of all my hopes.
I am the Gardener of my life.

I am the Gardener of my life.
I plant the seeds of my desires.
I discard the weeds of fear and limitation
That would block my emergence into the light.
I am the Gardener of my life.

I am the Gardener of my life.
I plant the seeds of my desires
I water the commitment of my highest aspirations.
I am the Gardener of my life.

I am the Gardener of my life.
I plant the seeds of my desires.
I glean the lessons of my deepest growth.
I am the Gardener of my life.

I am the Gardener of my life.
I plant the seeds of my desires.
I harvest the fruit of my work and dedication.
I am the Gardener of my life.

I am the Gardener of my life.
I nurture and protect the seeds of my heart.
I create my world with care and intention.
I am the Gardener of my life.
Xia, Temple of the Goddess

In the last year, most of us have seen and heard enough about The Secret to be really tired of it at this point. And yet, its message is one that has been repeated down through the ages, “As you think, so shall ye reap.” Now, Quantum Physics verifies that. Science, God, Metaphysics, are all mostly on the same page. Sometimes is seems easy, creating that vision board, saying affirmations over and over, writing and praying the treatments, and sometimes the necessary actions of everyday life overwhelm and consume all available time. Our good intentions are left to be overtaken by the weeds in the garden.

Right at this moment I am seeing so many directions to take this piece of writing. Leaning back in my chair, looking at the brilliant blue of the sky, the yellowing walnut tree leaves, the cool breeze rippling through them bringing the feel of fall, I ask myself what do I say here? Where do I go with this? Stay on track, a little voice whispers.

Staying on track means speaking of what touched me most deeply last night when I heard the above poem. At last, after a path of over 30 years of seeking, I have the tools to tend my own garden, easily, quickly and with minimum effort. I can do it for myself; I don’t have to depend on someone else, a guru, teacher, therapist, workshop, self-improvement tape, etc. In 3 short days, I got the basic set of tools, in another 3 days, I received a more advanced set, and then all that was left for me to do was to use them. And I do, every day. It doesn’t take a lot of time and I can see instant results. And what's more important, I see the results in my friends and clients. If I feel, see or hear some part of me nagging or judging me or others, or a place where fear is holding me back, I can just stop quickly in the moment; look for the belief that’s creating these thoughts, clear it out as easily as pulling a weed from a garden. With ThetaHealing, I am truly the Gardener of my life. The rush of gratitude that I felt as I responded over and over, "I am the Gardener of my Life." still fills my being.

How did that Voice get in my head?

Today I was working and my client sat perched in my head making negative nasty comments. I couldn’t see him, but I sure could hear him. Every action I took, he had something critical to say about it. Maybe I’m the only one who has this happen. And maybe not. I certainly don’t like it when it does.

Part of what I don’t like, is that at a deeper and wiser level, I know it’s not my client. I know it’s me. That voice belongs to my own critic. It is fueled by my beliefs about what my client thinks about me. At a deeper level still is my desire to please others and thus attain their approval and to have them affirm that I am okay with that approval.

I must have worked all morning with that voice nagging at me about this and that. I did complete what I needed to complete, but certainly not in fun and joy. Mostly I completed it arguing with that voice. Yes, sometimes even cussing at it.

In the afternoon I was meeting with that same client. Given my internal relationship with them, coming into direct contact did not look very promising. I was thinking of taking the project and throwing it at them and quitting.

One the way to my appointment I “finally” had the bright idea to do Theta on my own belief of how this person saw me. Yes, you have that right! My belief about how they saw me. I can’t do ThetaHealing on another person without their permission, but I can do Theta all day long on my beliefs about what they believe about me.

Just this very morning I had opened my Theta Commercial at my Team Referral Networking Group with the sentence, “Our beliefs create our reality! If a chiropractor who has a patient who believes they won’t heal, then no matter how talented that chiro is – they won’t heal.”

What if I change my beliefs about how my client views me? What if I use Theta to change the belief that he thinks I don’t know enough, am not talented enough, am too slow, to something like “I believe that he believes that I am a talented designer and can do things very rapidly, and easily and that I’m truly worthy of what he’s paying me. That I am fun to work with, and that we accomplish a lot with joy, fun, ease and grace.” So, I did.

What happened? Well, it was the best meeting we’ve ever had. We went on for an hour and even though there were things that slowed us down, he didn’t get at all impatient with me. I didn’t get impatient with myself, I might add. We accomplished everything we set out to do, and I feel I walked away from the meeting with a much clearer understanding of what his needs and want are.

Am I committed to my life?

I recently realized that I’ve never made a commitment to this life, my life, my beingness with all that comes with it, talents, gifts, and the unique bundle that is me. There’s always been a part of me that has held back. Not fully gone for it. Not really wanted to be here on this planet, in this body, afraid of this or that or the other thing. Anxiety lived in me so continually and familiarly that I never knew I was anxious until someone described an anxiety attack. I just looked at them and said, “I’ve been living like that all my life." (Another story is how ThetaHealing assisted me to clean out and disappear that anxiety.) Part of the lack of commitment, this ambivalence about life is that I’d enjoy and treasure life in one moment, and in the next I’d wish to disappear, to just not go on (I feel as if I’m taking a huge leap to admit all this here – and yet I know that these sorts of love/hate, push/pull, up/down feelings live in many of us. One of the things I love about Theta Healing is that it’s assisted me to bring a balance to this see-saw. But, back to my subject. Commitment to my life? What does it mean to be making a 100% commitment to my life? I’m still finding out. Right this very moment, sitting in Eaton Canyon on a cement picnic table seat, life twittering and buzzing about me, the soft cool breeze a welcome relief form the heat wave of the last week I know that the action I’m taking right now to write this is an action of commitment to myself. It is an action of exploration, of learning, of being willing to both learn and write about what I learn so that others may profit from it if it is applicable to them. It is an action that says no more excuses like I have so much to do I can’t get to this. This action is from the heart of my being, an act of my creativity expressing itself And it’s now. I’m approaching 60 wayyyyyy too fast. It’s only a little over a month away. It’s certainly not comfortable to look at the lack of commitment in the last 60 years. Even more uncomfortable if I make it wrong. Who knows, maybe I’ve lived lifetimes like this and in this one, right now I’m waking up. What a wonderful thought is that? If that’s the case I still may have another 10, 20, 30 or even 40 years to be committed to and fully enjoy my life. Or, I may only get this moment. And maybe the next. Really though, it’s just about the NOW. Each moment of NOW. Am I living this moment committed to myself. What does this mean? How do I know what commitment to myself is? My first step was to use Theta to Ask the Source of ALL that is to teach me what the Source’s definition of commitment is and to make mine the same. What is the definition of commitment that causes a sycamore to fully commit to being a sycamore? A bumble bee to fully commit to being a bumble bee and even though he’s not supposed to be able to fly, to carry heavy weights of pollen from one flower to another. I’m sitting in a grove of sycamores and each one is different, has a beauty of its own and some seem more fully committed to life than others. On Yahoo news this morning, I saw a video of the US’s oldest worker, Ray Jenkins – he’s 101. He’s still working at a fairgrounds and looked and sounded to me as mentally and physically agile as some 70 years old I’ve seen. That man is commited to his life. While he doesn’t see anything special about what he’s doing – he’s a beacon to me – there is a life long after 60. Given that it took me 20 years to “grow up”, I could have a half a lifetime more to … to what? Yesterday I used my Theta to learn how to live a life of commitment, what it means to do that, what it feels like to do that, that it’s safe for me to do that, and that I’m worthy and deserving of living such a life. And I do feel that change inside of me. And I do see my own actions changing as a result. I am this font of creativity, how many ways will I fully express it?